Wow. It's been so long.
Well. Many things happened, many events happening after one another,
i guess i'm just too lazy to write all about it.
These few days, im really down.
i dont know whether it's the haze or school,
i doubt it's the haze.
i realise something strange is really happening to me.
Everyday when i come home after a whole day of fun and laughter,
i sit down and i start to feel lousy.
It's so contradicting because i did have fun, i was really enjoying myself,
i wasn't pretending to be happy.
But once i settle down, my heart seems to start crying.
Nope, it's not because i have family problems.
i love my family.
Perhaps the reality of life keeps hitting me in the head.
Im so sick of facing pretentious and shallow people.
i caught a glimpse of what the business world is like,
and im not sure if that's where i wanna work, be all my life.
School is only 10% of what is it out there.
Im afraid. Im not strong.
Everyone keeps teeling me to be strong, to be positive,
But hey, can being positive really hide the fact that life IS sad.
Because Life is.
We can try all ways to smile and think that life is great,
tell ourselves, " it's just how you see it la "
BUT, that cannot hide the ugliness of reality can it?
Ah, what's the point of saying all these because i know i need to get back to life
after typing this entry.
im just sad that im not enjoying life at the moment.
Life's good when you're young.
Oh wells, i miss my old days.
